Confidence is earned over time by repetition and refinement. It is said that about 10,000 hours of practise is required to master a new skill. It is normal to feel anxious and insecure when beginning internship, which is the first time you are responsible for your patients. That is why there is a system in place, protocols to be followed and seniors to guide you. The purpose of internship is to expose the medical student to various clinical applications of medicine & surgery.
During post-graduation you undergo in-depth training in your chosen speciality. During initial days of PG, you will again go through the same feelings of anxiety and underconfidence, especially when seniors seem to know exactly what they are doing. It is important to remember that everyone has gone through the same feelings.
Just remember to put one foot in front of the other, day after day. Be a hard worker and a good observer, even in how not to do things. Don’t hesitate or be afraid to ask for help from your colleagues, and your support staff. You would be surprised at how much insight an experienced nurse or technician can offer. Read theory/lierature well, on your own, after every new or difficult patient you encounter. Over a period of time, a lot of basic skills will become second nature to you, like walking or cycling become.
Since you are responsibile for patients’ lives, you will always feel a certain tension which never goes away completely. It is not a bad feeling, as long as it doesn’t overwhelm you. In fact, it helps you prepare and perform better every time. This is how most, if not all medical professionals feel.